there are mornings where i am thrusted out of my sleep with urgency and i know that it is my ancestors. someone has shaken me awake because something is happening and it is of extreme importance that I be taken from my slumber to bear witness. when my brain and body make the connection, i … More job is a story about reparations. Black people ain’t getting shit.
It is Day 2 of this new decade and I have to admit that despite having this new 20/20 vision I keep finding myself looking backwards into the dumpster fire that was 2019. Today I finally understood why the Israelites wanted to go back to Egypt, shit was fucked up but at least the Cup-O-Noodle … More The Director’s Cut
Today I lost my job. These set of letters arranged to make the sentence above is a foreign language I have never written or spoken before. My stages of grief have jumped from anger at myself to depression where I am currently idling. All of the work that I have done to get this … More Once Upon A Time I Was A Librarian
Youth. Young. Vibrant. Promise. Longevity. All the time in the world. I thought we had more time. A few days ago a friend shared with me that she felt like she was in a one-sided friendship. She is right. I suck at the follow-up, check-in, initiating factor of friendships. Every year I purchase holiday cards … More Time
“You know what they say, “Everything ain’t for everybody”. But I tried anyway.” – Jill Scott There is something daunting when one thinks of standing at the edge of a new year. Will I find love? Will I keep my job? Will I lose this weight? Or will I make all the same mistakes that … More Note to Self
1. Meet someone who shows you attention. Not a lot, just enough that makes you feel notice. For example, he said hello and smiled at you each time he walked into your office. If he stops and asks about your weekend don’t pump your emotional brakes, accelerate that bitch. That’s a sign that he wants … More 10 Steps in Unrequited Love: A Poem
There comes a point in every person’s life whether he or she must make some changes to one’s own personal constitution. The rules that you set for yourself starting at a very young age are extremely binding until something major happens to you, and you are forced to step back and ask yourself if the … More The 99 & 2000 of Living My Best Life
365 days later and whole lot changed, some stayed the same, but you and Beyoncé still had the same 24 hours in a day. The real question is: Did you slay? … More My Seat At The Table and Other Musings of the Last 365 Days
Did you know that when you get depressed, your stomach becomes a black hole? I ate an entire pizza today and not once did I feel full. I’m like freakin’ David Cooperfield over here! Why am I sad? Because I’m on my period. Because it’s Sunday. Maybe, because my brain has had it out for … More Depression and Other Fun Ice Breakers!
It’s 4:51 in the morning and I cannot sleep. I actually woke up around 3 AM from a buzzing sound near my ear, which lead me to freak out in a raging panic thinking that I had some creature squatting in my ear cavity, which then lead me to freaking out about the social construct … More Code Switching Chronicles: Why Am I Not Good Enough?